| happy birthday sheri  i didnt ferget, gurl. jus cos ur all the way in the states and i dont even get to see you anymore!
i'd post up a pic but i dont have one of you! :(
ish ok though... i tink i tink i tink 
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| i miss you so much -- ur mine mine mine -- i'll see you in 52 days unless i'm counting incorrectly -- thanks for calling -- i love you. |
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| i think i've got endorphins shooting out of me or something..  tahahaha. im so happy. either from running or from talking to nick on the phoneeee!! maybe both.
this feels so weird, you know? nick is halfway around the world and his days and nights are switched. so when i'm sleeping he's going to be studying away in pennsylvania, and then while i'm all active and running around he's gonna be snoring. it's nice to hear his voice after not hearing it for um.. almost two days hehe.
so enough talk about nick. how are youuuuu? i'm still enjoyin swaton. weeheehehehee. eri's poop. she always comes late these days and today she made me wait for her while she took the vocab test that she missed  haha just keeeding...
you know what? this summer is actually going by a lot faster than last year. i guess in a way it's good because then i get to see nick "sooner" and i go to cate "sooner".. but on the flipside i'm also leaving home and my family and friends "sooner" and also leaving nick "sooner". omg this is so weird. maybe it's going by fast because of the hakwon.. i mean it's fun, cmon. im sure some of you want to stab me right now. but whatever.
btw, if you're bored or anything, please please please feel free to contact me at 010-3909-6166.. even though i love running i am willing to go out of my way to have some fun with youuuu!! plus i'm leaving to boarding school in about two and a half months and then i wont be able to see any of you until winter break!  hakwon ends at 12 and as long as i don't fail the vocab test i am free for the rest of the day mon~fri! hehehe...
you know what i'm afraid of? time. i mean, two years ago, i was a completely different person. even last year i wasn't who i am now. and.. two months ago? okay well, let's just say that things have changed a lot. time is slipping through my fingers like sand... and it's the one thing in life that you can't get back after you lose it. no matter what you do you jus gotta keep living.. and somehow try to make up for that wasted time and make the best out of the TIME that you have left to live. im sad that i wasn't able to become closer to this person and that person and that person from that school.. and maybe i should have gotten to know this dude better. because i know that later ill look back and i'll be like "damn, sohee. why the hell are you so stupid? why did you have to be so friggin shy?" i mean believe me, there are a lottta people i would have liked to have been good good friends with. i jus keep missing the chance... actually scratch that - i jus keep skipping it, ignoring it, letting it pass by... damn it.
when i was a toddler i was soso shy. i would be standing in the elevator with my mom and this lady would be like "Why hello, aren't you cute. What's your name?" and i'd scream and hide behind my mom's leg. I don't even know why. I was terrified of strangers talknig to me. i couldn't make a peep. I remember when I went to kindergarten, this one time I had to pee so bad but since I was new there i was too shy to speak up or anything. It was around 11am, and school let out at 1:30pm or so... and I thought I could make it. It was soo uncomfortable. So finally after like an hour I wiggled up to the teacher and squeak "bathroom..." and jus when I do I pissed in my poor pants. I mean honestly, that's how shy i was. Of course now I've opened up a lot more, and when I'm hyper things can get a little out of hand. But I've still got that little inkling of the past inside of me and it's not going away. Well, now. Soon I'll be starting a new life and I'll have another opportunity to become the person i've always wanted to be. Question is.. will I even take this chance this time?
Oh well. I'm okay for now. I've got the girlies who've got my back. I've got Nick who I can always stomp on whenever I feel down (just keeding) plus Albert and Phillip and Alex and everybody else I can bother like a motha.
I'm gonna go sulk now. Entertain me. 
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| there's no place like home. there's no place like home. there's no place like home. |
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